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As soon as da lil pup entered Her house She knew dat dis ws da beginning of a special relationship between it n Her. Der ws a big discussion over wat da pup shud b named…’Pepper’ Her sis called out…naah…not glamorous enuf…’Velvet’ sum1 els suggested…no…still nt gud enuf…She wanted it to b named ‘Poopsy’…”no,no, v cant hav dat…dat is Xavier uncle’s step-sister’s name” Her mom said…”but hw abt Pepsi?”…dat sounded gud to Her…yea…Pepsi will b a gud name…So Pepsi it ws…

Pepsi, as it turned out, ws a very naughty pup…it lukd like a moving carpet whneva it walked…She got very attached to it…

As time passed…Pepsi grew n so did their relationship…wheneva She came bak frm skool,Pepsi will b der waiting fr Her…wid nothing but love in her eyes…a quick pat on da head ws all dat Pepsi needed…it followed Her around da house…ate da most funniest things fr a dog to b eatin like peanuts n watermelons…during bath-time,Pepsi ws da most patient dog dat one cud wish fr…it actually enjoyed da water…She ws happy…she had other pet dogs too,but Pepsi ws her favorite…Pepsi ws special…

Da best bday gift dat She cud ask fr ws given to Her by Pepsi…yes,on Her bday,Pepsi gave birth to 5 of da most cutest pups on earth!...She felt like it ws only yesterday dat Her Pepsi herself ws a pup…but nw,der Pepsi ws, nursing her own pups…

Time passed by…Pepsi gave birth to more pups…Her’s n Pepsi’s relationship grew closer n closer wid each passin day…She dint knw dat the fateful day will soon arrive when She wud wish dat She cud turn bak time…

The fateful day came…Her dad had called Her out to close da gate after he leaves wid da car to work…She bent n looked down to chek if any of Her dogs ws sleepin under da car…Pepsi ws der,sleepin…she ws at da end of da car…nowhere near da tires…da car wud move without scratchin her quite easily…She dint bother to move Pepsi…Her dad started da car…n drove it outside da house…She turned bak to see where Pepsi ws…but Pepsi wsnt where she ws just 10 seconds ago…she ws abt 4ft away frm da place where she ws resting…her head ws oozing blood profusely…She didn’t knw wat to do…She called out to Her dad…”dad!wait up!...look at Pepsi”...Da next 2 hrs wr da worst of Her life…They had taken Pepsi to da vet n She had been cryin throughout…”its all my fault”,She thought…da worst thots kept on entering Her mind…”Will my Pepsi make it thru dis?...oh pls God pls let her live…I’l neva 4give myself if she dusnt”…the doctors did da best that they cud do…they said dat nw its up2 Pepsi’s body, up2 whether it is capable of recovering or nt …”Of cors it is!...hw can Pepsi ever leav me like dis n go?”…They went bak home n fr nearly a week She saw her dearest friend struggling wid life…She dint tell her frnds abt hw bad it ws fr Her to cope up wid dis…they wudnt understand it anyways…The doctors had started to advice dat Pepsi shud b put to sleep…”NO! Hw can any1 ever think of sumthin so cruel!”,She thot…”My Pesi wil make it thru dis”…

One day, as Pepsi ws resting, one of her pups dat ws blind sniffed da air n walked up rite next to her…She ws lookin…lookin at hw a helpless mother ws bidding farewell to her helpless pup…n den She knew…knew dat Her most beloved dog wudnt make it…She ran bak to Her room n started crying uncontrollably…She dint realize when She had fallen asleep…

Her mom woke Her up in wat seemed like 2 minutes but whn She glanced at da clock,it had been 2 hrs…”so wat?..y ws her mom waking her up like dis?dint she knw hw bad she felt?”…n then Her mum told what She had been dreading to hear fr da past 1 week…”Pepsi has passed away beta”…Her whole world bcame still…”this cant b true…I just saw her outside a lil while ago!”…She went out to luk fr Herself…there Pepsi ws…lying on an old bedsheet…she ws surely just sleeping…She went n touched her…She wished She hadn’t…coz She knew dat She had touched da firm lifeless body of Her dog…She burst out crying…Her parents dint know wat to say to Her,hw to comfort Her…Then mum sat next to Her,wiped away Her tears n asked Her to stop crying n listen fr a bit…She did…Her mum started,”listen beta…I’m nt asking u to completely 4get Pepsi…coz I knw dat its nt possible fr u…it wont b possible fr any of us…all I say is dat,Pepsi wont b happy to see u cry like dis,will she?...so just tuck her away in a corner of ur heart…keep her alive as a sweet memory in ur mind”…”I’l try”,She said…

Pepsi ws buried in their backyard…She put a rose frm the garden over her grave n went bak inside da house…She noticed dat no1 ws makin any noise…all wr thinking…remembering da lil bundle of energy dat used to walk thru these very rooms… the way she had da perfect black n white stripes as if God himself had painted her…da way da hair in between her eyes looked like a white wine glass…yes,she was definitely a true beauty…was…

Would things be different if She had moved Pepsi frm under da car dat day?...yes…Would she ever forgive herself fr wat had happnd?...not any time soon…will Pepsi forgive her?...She dint knw…She wudnt knw…

That ws that ws 4 yrs ago…nw,She dusnt even remember da date whn Pepsi died…it hurts to try to rem’ber…Her mum wud rem’ber fr sure…Nw,one of da pups dat Pepsi had gifted Her still lives…wid Her…but She hasn’t attached herself to him or any of her other dogs…She knows dat no1 can ever b as special to Her as Pepsi ws…never…She didn’t wanna try it and be hurt all over again…no…She has followed Her mum’s advice n kept Pepsi in Her heart…where she always will b…forever…along wid…Regret.